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Jan. 5th, 2009 | 12:20 am
mood: awake awake

Livin' on the edge! Hahah...actually Facebook has finally let me upload pics so I'm adding a bunch of photos now while I can. Farhan is enjoying his last day off (I still can't believe we had him for a whole week...it is quite honestly one of the best weeks of my life) by just watching another DVD. He might regret that in a few hours time when he has to get up and go to work, but hey, this is as adventurous as we get in terms of a break in routine ;) Aqil's sleeping on a mattress on the floor of the TV room, while I'm out in the dining room typing this. I just realized that I can join Farhan in the TV room because DUH this is a laptop. But what if that jinxes my new Facebook luck!?!?

I'm really gonna miss my hubby when he goes back to work. For the past three months now I only see him a few days a month because he is off at various sites around the country supervising installations of something. Everyday I wish that he has a 9-5 job and that I would get to see him everyday. Aqil has been the happiest of all of us this past week. They've really bonded again, and it breaks my heart to think that soon Farhan will be gone for weeks at a time again. Luckily we're staying with my parents, so Aqil is not want for love and attention. But grandparent-y affection is different from fatherly affection. No one else can throw him in the air or carry him on their shoulder the way Daddy does, y'know? Gahh...I promised myself I wouldn't cry...

As for me, of course I will miss having him around. But I'm an adult, so I can understand why he's gone. To Aqil, his Daddy will just have vanished again. I grew up in a household where my dad travelled a lot. Its affected me to this day, and though I'm not one to carry grudges, I do have some resentment over that period in my life. Nowadays, though, my dad comes home early. I asked him why, and he said he felt sorry for his grandson because Farhan was away so much. I pointed out that he never felt sorry for me when I was a kid. He replied that "Yeah, that's why I'm trying to make up for it now"...Awwwh.

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m_ich

From: m_ich
Date: Jan. 6th, 2009 09:04 pm (UTC)
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aww hugs, i do hope he gets to be home more often, mine used to travel as well while i was preggy(we're lucky that he's got another job so now it's better) but most of all it must be hard for a lil kid to not see his dad every morning and evening, and to understand why he's not around. You are due soon with the 2nd? All the best!

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adriana le délicieux

From: flutterflywild
Date: Jan. 7th, 2009 03:06 am (UTC)
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Yeah, its always the kids who take it the hardest :( Well yesterday he got home "early" - 11pm. *LOL* And people wonder why I put Aqil to bed to early!

Yep, the second is due sometime in March...its coming round faster than I thought it would o.0

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