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Jun. 12th, 2009 | 11:53 am

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3mos + 22mos

Jun. 12th, 2009 | 11:39 am

3 months of breastfeeding my newborn! And 22months of breastfeeding my toddler :D

Afraz is going through a phase where he loooooves nursing in a sling to sleep. If possible, he’d want to nurse in a sling all day and have my boobs right there when he wakes up.

Aqil has gone from nursing like a newborn to nursing once or twice a day. I have a feeling that he’s close to weaning, and it’s so bittersweet. I would have liked to nurse him longer but I know that he’s just moving onto the next phase of his life. I’ve always wanted the decision to wean to be his, anyway.

We hardly ever tandem nurse anymore since DS1 isn’t bothered with nursing much. I’m quite relieved, since having both of them on my tiny body was getting tiresome! I’m having a lot of trouble with positioning now that Afraz is bigger. It used to be that Aqil had the roaming hands, rubbing his baby brother's head and pressing his nose, etc. But now Afraz is the one punching and kicking his poor big brother, who just takes it calmly. I have to be the referee most times, which is difficult with both of them on me, as I'm sure you can imagine!!

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A thought

Jun. 8th, 2009 | 09:29 pm

In the midst of my sleep-deprived stupor today, a thought occurred to me. It happened around the time I was trying to bounce my very-awake cooing newborn to sleep in a sling while chasing my gleefully squealing naked toddler around the dining table. Where do they get their energy from? What is it about life that invigorates them so much? Then the answer hits me - everything!

My newborn can stare at his own hands for ten minutes, completely fascinated. My toddler can play with his shadow for half an hour, yelling at the top of his lungs the whole time. When he was a newborn, my toddler could watch our cat’s every movement for hours without even blinking. My newborn seems to think that every song I sing is deserving of a big gummy grin and a long cooing commentary rivaling that of the American Idol judges. And apparently my toddler just loves the feeling of air billowing around his privates.

Why is it that we, as adults, take these things for granted? It seems like we just” don’t have time” for these things. But the truth is, we’ll never have time. We’re all running out of time. We’re all headed for a meeting with Death, whether sooner or later, we can’t know. So why not make time for appreciating the simple, yet profound, things that life, nature, family and friends have to offer?

Look at your face in the mirror and really take a good look at yourself – the slope of your nose, the angle of your jaws, the curve of your eyebrows. Play with your shadow – have a shadow puppet competition with your friends. Watch God’s other creatures go about their business – a cat grooming itself, a bird feeding its young, a tree billowing in the wind. Sing! – Have a karaoke session with your friend, or sing with your best voice while you shower. You can even feel the joy of “hanging free” – but only if you plan on doing naked circuits around your own dining table, thanks.

Life isn’t short or long. It is what it is. You can either enjoy every bit of it while you still can, or you can choose to disregard the small details only to realize one day that the small details are all that mattered...

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Breastfeeding milestone

Apr. 26th, 2009 | 11:07 am
mood: accomplished accomplished

We made it to six weeks!

Nursing has been so much easier this time around. I don't know if it's just experience or having a better nurser (he nursed within ten minutes after his birth and latched on perfectly from the start). Unfortunately, I have overactive letdown again, so we're trying to work through that. I do let my "human pump" (a.k.a Aqil) nurse first if possible, to gobble up that first letdown, but my subsequent letdowns are just as strong. Plus, unlike DS1 who always looooooved the fast flow, this one actually cries when it happens.

Tandem nursing has been quite an experience. The first month was tough because I had major agitation issues with Aqil and just couldn't stand nursing him. But that has pretty much vanished. My cousin, who is still tandem nursing her 1+yr old and 3+yr old, gave me a tip: find a tandem nursing position you're comfortable with and stick with it. Now I pretty much only tandem nurse in a semi-reclining modified double-cradle/cradle-football hold or side-lying with the newborn while the toddler is in the perch position from behind. Pics behind the cut if my descriptions don't make sense ;)

Afraz is always nursing, of course. Aqil has his days - some days he only nurses twice, some days (like today) he wants to nurse every time he spots his brother nursing *LOL* Anyway, onto the pictures!

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It took me more than a month to post this here!

Apr. 21st, 2009 | 07:33 pm
mood: happy happy

I am SO SORRY. LJ completely slipped my mind when it came to places to put my birth story!!! Anyway, here it is, if y'all are interested :D

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An update while Aqil is distracted

Jan. 12th, 2009 | 11:57 am
mood: happy happy

I love being able to get on my laptop for 15-minute spurts throughout the day. But I introduced Aqil to the magical world that is YouTube and now he will request his favorite videos (baby signing videos about animals) whenever he spots me using the laptop. I'm sick to death of the videos, but he's learned SO MANY words and signs this way, it's just fascinating!

His vocabulary mostly consists of animal names right now. He's not that interested in much else *LOL* But he's starting to say things like "sit", "shishi", and the occasional "mama" and "dada". I'd prefer if he learned words that were more functional than animal names, buuuut I'll take what I can get ;) At least he understands a lot of words and simple instructions. That, in itself, helps out a lot.

I'm at that point in pregnancy where I just can't get comfortable enough to sleep. It is a cruel joke that I wake up several times a night when Aqil has finally started sleeping through the night!! I've been having strange dreams too. For the past week, I've been dreaming about giving birth. Every time its been at home, pain-free and I'd be running around afterwards like nothing came out of me. How I wish that would happen!

2009 is shaping up to be an amazing year. Aqil is going to gain a little brother and possibly TWO new aunts! That's right, my brother's engaged :D The date has not been set just yet but I am already super-excited and sooooo happy for them. Farhan's brother also just got engaged, and plans to wed by the end of the year. Its a very exciting time for our family :D PLUS, my new baby will be born in the year of the Ox, just like me.

Ok then, I had to leave my laptop at least five times while writing this...and now Aqil is requesting his "chicken" video on YouTube. LOL. Will update more soon!

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Up past midnight

Jan. 5th, 2009 | 12:20 am
mood: awake awake

Livin' on the edge! Hahah...actually Facebook has finally let me upload pics so I'm adding a bunch of photos now while I can. Farhan is enjoying his last day off (I still can't believe we had him for a whole week...it is quite honestly one of the best weeks of my life) by just watching another DVD. He might regret that in a few hours time when he has to get up and go to work, but hey, this is as adventurous as we get in terms of a break in routine ;) Aqil's sleeping on a mattress on the floor of the TV room, while I'm out in the dining room typing this. I just realized that I can join Farhan in the TV room because DUH this is a laptop. But what if that jinxes my new Facebook luck!?!?

I'm really gonna miss my hubby when he goes back to work. For the past three months now I only see him a few days a month because he is off at various sites around the country supervising installations of something. Everyday I wish that he has a 9-5 job and that I would get to see him everyday. Aqil has been the happiest of all of us this past week. They've really bonded again, and it breaks my heart to think that soon Farhan will be gone for weeks at a time again. Luckily we're staying with my parents, so Aqil is not want for love and attention. But grandparent-y affection is different from fatherly affection. No one else can throw him in the air or carry him on their shoulder the way Daddy does, y'know? Gahh...I promised myself I wouldn't cry...

As for me, of course I will miss having him around. But I'm an adult, so I can understand why he's gone. To Aqil, his Daddy will just have vanished again. I grew up in a household where my dad travelled a lot. Its affected me to this day, and though I'm not one to carry grudges, I do have some resentment over that period in my life. Nowadays, though, my dad comes home early. I asked him why, and he said he felt sorry for his grandson because Farhan was away so much. I pointed out that he never felt sorry for me when I was a kid. He replied that "Yeah, that's why I'm trying to make up for it now"...Awwwh.

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Happy New Year!

Jan. 2nd, 2009 | 10:35 am

Happy New Year, everyone!

Hubby dearest got me a new laptop as a birthday&anniversary present, so I hope to update more in the coming months (well, at least until the baby comes, at which point I'd rather spend any free time sleeping than on the computer).

Now I'm not one for resolutions, so I'm not gonna call these that, but here are a list of things I would like to accomplish in the next year:
- Eat healthier. This means less junk food, more fresh and preferably organic food. More fruits and veges too.
- Drink more water. Notice I said water, not liquid. I take in plenty of liquids a day in the form of juice and soymilk, but I haaaaaaaaaaaaaate water. So I'm going to bump up my water intake (slowly, lol) to at least 6 glasses a day.
- Find more time for myself. I need to feel less guilty about taking some time to myself. Half an hour a day is plenty...just enough to take a long shower, maybe read a chapter in a book. And I'm not talking about when the babies are sleeping either, because that's when I should be napping too. I'm talking about when other people are around to help take care of them for a little bit.
- Worry less. I'm a chronic worrier. I worry about everyone, all the time. Some rational, some...not so much. So, I'm going to consciously cut down on unnecessary worrying because frankly it's pretty tiring and its really pointless.
- Be better to the environment. This means no more forgetting to bring my reusable bags when going grocery shopping! This also means recycling (we used to this a lot in the States because its so convenient; I'm ashamed to admit I don't know where the recycling center for my area is). And of course, continue cloth diapering myself and the babies ;) Also, use less plastic! Stop wasting water! I can go on and on about this topic.
- Go to new places more often. Its hard to branch out to new, unfamiliar places (read: places where I don't know where the nearest baby changing area is), but I have to do this just to expose myself and the kids to new environments.

I'm sure I can think of more, but we're off to Aquaria now (see? I'm already starting on that last one!).

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Happy 3rd Anniversary, honey :)

Dec. 24th, 2008 | 08:38 am
mood: loved loved

Tomorrow is makes it our third year of being blissfully married ;) LOL.

I love you, sweety. You're a wonderful husband and amazing dad...I couldn't have made a better choice.


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Mini update on my mobile

Nov. 12th, 2008 | 12:17 am

OMG!It says here on LJ that I haven't updated in 12 weeks! How very bad of me! Well I can't update much right now because I'm typing this on my phone,but here's a brief update 4 those not on Facebook. I'm about 5 months pregnant and IT'S A BOY! Aqil is 15 months old, running everywhere & into everything. He's also starting to talk!Right now he can say duck,dog,fish,what's that?,bird,nak (want),tak nak (don't want). Unfortunately he doesn't call me Mommy. The closest I can get is him tugging at my shirt,whining & yelling 'nak nak nak', LOL. Well my thumbs are tired so I will update more when I'm at a computer & not when its past midnight & I'm too uncomfortable to sleep & thus am surfing the net on my phone.

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